Still In Love with My Childhood Crush

"Fate took over. We started developing romantic feelings for each other, but because of our friendship, it took us quite a while to admit what we felt for one another."


♥ CHAPTER ONE ♥

We Were SoYoung Then.

1995 -1996. I was 7 years old when we moved in our hometown where I met my childhood crush. I had crushes before but those were totally different.

P was the cutest guy in our place. I felt something strange for him. Whenever I saw him playing basketball near our house, I felt butterflies in my stomach. I felt shy and embarrassed. I felt nervous. My cheeks got red.

What was that feeling? I had a crush on that boy who played basketball really well. I found him cute when he smiled. Whenever I looked at him and he smiled back, I melted. For me, he had the nicest hair. The stories by my brother on how my crush danced triggered the admirations I felt. Fate took over. My eyes just went straight to him and it was as if a glow was all around him. I was excited to go home after school because I would be able to see him playing.

For years, I have only seen him when he passed by our house or whenever I passed by theirs. One thing was for sure. He never noticed me. He only knew me because he's friends with my brother. Most of the time, I stayed inside our house during my teenage years playing Crash Bandicoot and Sonic with our Sega.

♥ CHAPTER TWO ♥

My Childhood Crush Broke My Heart.

Fast Forward2005. Years passed and social networking sites boomed. Friendster was the "in" thing when I first learned how to interact through the internet. One day, I saw himsitting in front of their house. I knew he no longer recognized me. I tried to search his name in Google and I found numerous posts about him. My heart felt something inexplicable for the same person the second time around. R was in a relationship when I checked his Friendster account. I just said to myself, "Ang gwapo pa din niya." But how could I compete? The boy-next-door turned out to be the apple of the eye of every girl in town. My childhood crush blossomed perfectly.

I felt my admiration for my childhood crush for the nth time. Good thing though, my family and I moved to the city. It was easier for me since I didn't get the chance to see him in person. But honestly, it was always a fantasy; something that could never happen in real life for so many, many reasons. As I got older, I realized this. As I got older, my childhood crush faded into memory.

♥ CHAPTER THREE ♥

Start of Something Unexpected.

P and I crossed our paths again in April of 2008. We were already friends in Friendster, but no nothings. One humid night, I received a new message in my inbox from P. I screeched to hell since I saw his name. Yes, P sent me a message! He said, "Hi! Dalaga ka na ah. Parang kailanlang! Kamusta na kuya mo?" My heart skipped for joy, but I tried to hide it. It was an unassuming message, yet for me, it was more than something! Notwithstanding the spark, I tried to control my feelings as I would like to rest for some time as I had just recovered from a dreadful 3-year relationship.

But what can I do? We can't change the inevitable. The friendship had just begun. No one thought that it would develop into a more serious bond, neither me. We started chatting every night for the first two weeks. Subsequently came the 24-hour texting stage. First thing in the morning,we would exchange good morning messages. It was solely pure friendship. Honestly, I was hesitant to know him more since I have known him as the heartthrob who made a lot of girls drool and cry. Girls were the one pursuing him.

We started dating and a lot happened in between. My brother learned about us. He advised me not to see him anymore. They're friends since their salad days so he knew a lot about P and his past, including girls in the aspect of P's life. I tried to avoid P, but I failed.

We continued our communication. Constant dates, dinner,movies, shopping, 24/7 texting and chat. We were both happy. We enjoyed eachother's company. We discovered a lot about each other. Dreams, goals, plans, aspirations -- name it! We have discussed and experienced almost everything like a real life couple.

But what was lacking? There was still no commitment. There was no guarantee. It was certainly one of the toughest parts of our relationship. Frustration, fear and jealousy were there. We started developing romantic feelings for each other, but because of our friendship, it took us quite a while to admit what we felt for one another.

♥ CHAPTER FOUR ♥

The Hardest Battle.

Fast forward November 2008. Both of us have met each other's families. We started calling each other "by". Albeit the tight bond and the friendship we developed for the past 7 months, there was still no commitment yet.

His family.

Her family.

P was scheduled to leave the Philippines for work on the 14th of November 2008. As we were counting down the hours of separation, God magically blessed us! We became an official couple the day before he left me.

Long distance relationship must be the most avoided part of a relationship amongst all the couples out there. True enough, it was hard! But we both believe that everything worth having is worth waiting for. We held tighter instead.

3 years shortly, in October 2011, we ended our hardest battle. We finally ended the dreaded distance between us. Yay to us! We survived! Long distance relationship worked for us!

♥ CHAPTER FIVE ♥

Changes Ahead.

It feels like we have been together longer and I am sometimes surprised when I realize that it has only been three years. It feels like a lifetime in the most wonderful way you can imagine.

Here I am, a small town girl in my hometown, moved from the province to the city,and from the city back to the province, just to make our lives easier. At the end of the day, I am full of hopes to see my childhood crush waiting for me at the end of the isle wearing tuxedo and teary-eyed; looking perfectly handsome showing his perfect smile.

♥ CHAPTER FIVE ♥

Under Construction.

Our fifth chapter is still under maintenance. But one thing I assure P-- only God knows what I would be without you...


To P: Advance Happy 3rd Anniversary, baby! I soooo love you to the moon and back!